Two different experiences today of the energy kind that I’d like to share with you. Both relate to gold and freedom and lightness of being. Hope you like. 🙂
#1 – The Stone Wall
The first experience came about after I was writing an email to a friend and I was making plans about my future and while typing these things, I ‘saw’ myself piling packages and boxes and trinkets up against a big stone wall. It felt like my plans and ideas were pointless because I wasn’t actually able to get anywhere with this mother of a stone wall up against me. I felt like I was kidding myself.
So later, when I had the opportunity, I took myself back to this wall and expanded upon it with my energy mind to explore it. So.. stone wall. It’s taller than me and one big solid chunk of grey stone. It is blocking my path. I can’t see around it. I can’t move it or shift it. I am pushing against it with as much force as I can muster. I’m feeling frustrated that it’s not moving.
Where am I? I feel hot. The air is humid and sticky. I am sweating and I feel like I can’t breathe. It’s a stifling environment. My face feels so hot. I want to escape at that moment! And I realise that I am in a tunnel and this stone wall is blocking my exit forward, and behind me is another stone. I am trapped here. (literally between a rock and a hard place.. hardy har har! hehehehehehe)
I recognise that I could fall into a heap here. I could just flail and fall into a heap and cry and moan about not knowing what to do, that I can’t win. But I don’t. I know full well that I have the power to affect change here.
I notice on the ground near me is a ball which is solid glass but it is also radiating gold light from within. The glow from this ball is what is lighting up this tunnel and allowing me to see. It is bright and beautiful. I pick it up and am holding it in my fingers, the shine reflecting on the stone surface.
I touch the gold ball onto the stone wall. Just to see what happens. The joy of energy worlds! It IS only energy, so you can do anything, try anything.
With a metallic clang and a rippling noise, the point where the ball connected turns to gold. The gold quickly spreads outward from this point until the stone wall is no longer stone, but completely gold.
It looks shiny and cold. I decide to touch it with my hand. It is cool to touch. In doing so my palm sinks into the surface slightly. I pull my hand away and look at my palm. It is gold now too. At this point I notice that the air feels less stifling and cooler. My hand leaves a print on the wall. I look from my palm and back to the wall and I decide to lean into the wall.
I am slowly leaning into it and I am absorbed into it. It is hard going, I am pushing forward, slowly and steadily moving forward. I fall through to the other side of the thick wall. I am free! I am golden too!
There is a flower garden here and the air is so fresh and light. I see butterflies, the sun is shining brightly and I can hear and see birds around too. There are garden beds of daisies and other pretty flowers and tall trees with green leaves providing shade. A cool breeze is blowing.
I breathe in the freshness and I relax. It feels so good to be free! I am dancing and twirling! Gold sparks are flying off me as I turn. I feel magical and special. 🙂
[Editing this after the event showed me how that same day was a significant one for me in the sense of moving forward with career plans!]
#2 – The Goddess
The second experience was later in the day, in an evening meditation class as part of a guided meditation which was created/channeled by Margaret of Mystic Enchanted Insights.
Margaret guided us gently down a wooded path, through trees and nature, to a chapel to meet someone special… We may have all heard the same words through the meditation but with our individual experiences through our lives, I’m sure we created very different places in our energy minds!
My path had very tall and skinny trees, with very floppy greenery on top, for example. I wonder if someone else in the class had a forest. And maybe a thicker forest would have made for a darker world for them.
So I reached the chapel. My version of the chapel was a building in ruins. A place where no one had been for a long time. Made of stone, yet with some walls having crumbled down and without a roof. Much like this.
Although more shaded and secluded. And in here amongst the rubble was a gold statue. Sitting as though it had been spared by what time had done to the rest of the building.
The gold statue was of a Goddess. It was sculpted and had some ruby detailing, but not very clearly defined. It reminded me of a Buddha statue but also fertility goddess kind of smooth pear shape.
Then we were guided to see that the statue had come to life. My Goddess became a caucasian woman, in her 50s, who was wearing an orange and yellow sari. She was motherly towards me and loving. She was very patient, calm and peaceful.
I asked her what I needed to know right now and she came up to me and pulled a piece of fabric away that I had over the crook of my left arm with a little tearing noise. Lovingly of course. Everything she did was graceful. I reached my hand out to bring it back to me. I told her I needed that and wanted it back! I felt slight desperation about this and wanting to keep it.
She said “But look”, with a smile on her face, and showed me a rag which was dirty and grey and limp. She told me I didn’t need it anymore. I assured her that I did. She pulled further fabric strips away from me. I protested some more. Again she told me to look but this time she gestured to me and told me to look at myself. I looked down and saw that my skin was gold and shining underneath where the fabric strips had been taken. I still wasn’t sure about this, so I told her no, that I didn’t want to let go of these things yet.
She nodded and backed away from me slowly. Telling me that she knew that I would do so when the time was right.
Her backing away had me concerned and wishing she was back beside me again and giving me that ‘push’ to try something different. I felt regret but comfort all at once.
With her having moved away and this space to myself I removed some grey fabric rags that were over my feet. I marvelled at my gold toes and danced around. This was exciting!
When I contemplated removing more of the rags I felt resistance and due to where I was and the meditation soon coming to a close, I decided to just go with this feeling. (I may have used EFT and tapped for the resistance if I was at home) I felt torn between shedding more layers or not, and ended up doing nothing.
I farewelled the Goddess and the chapel and the trees and the path as the meditation came to a close, but my head was very curious about this all. This meditation as well as the common themes I can’t help but notice.
To me, I am on the verge of being (what I call) shiny. Which is probably why gold is everywhere I look! There is a fear of ‘shininess’ though, and some protective layers come in handy. It also takes some work to get myself feeling shiny. And I see that a gradual effort, on a path of least resistance, is going to get me there. And wow, when I’m there….? I can’t wait! It may not only be my energy that dances, twirls and radiates!